Being lucky is what I feel. I accepted GOD into my life by being baptized again not long ago. I was feeling lost, and nothing seem to be going right. Actually, I’ve felt lost most of my life. But, I decided no more. Even though Arthritis and Neuropathy has taken over my live. I’m unbalanced, can’t walk without stumbling, and in extreme pain all the time. My memory and vertigo is intolerable. Then I said, “I’m not going to sit here and feel sorry for myself anymore.” The doctors didn’t seem to care. They tell me, “I don’t know.” Or, “It’s not in my job description.” I asked God for help, and he answered by giving me strength.I’m trying to walk more, by not using my cane. I stretch and exercise more. I have delved into learning how to paint. Luck has it, I got accepted into a art show, asked to photograph a fashion show, and I feel stronger.
I’ve been so lucky and happy. My life has gotten off to a great start for the new year. Photography has put some extract change in my pocket. I don’t know what happen but sales is good. I’ve been praying for some success. I haven’t done much photography, but I need to get back out there. I found from the sales what people enjoy. It’s mostly photos of my home town. It’s a big tourist town as well, so the sales have given me a clue. Some more success, is being accepted into a Art Show and asked to be a photographer in a Fashion Show. Being in Wilmington, NC has its perks so I love living here. I want to show how beautiful and historic it is. There’s so much nature to enjoy. I’m going to keep listening to my God and not argue with him.
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Note: When I get back from my trip I have a lot to write about. This week someone opened my eyes to the truth and it was very embrassing for me. I had a feeling or intuition to this but I didn’t listen. I kept pushing and then ending result usually is not what you want. See you soon.
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There for a while I felt there was nothing out there for me. The days were just so slow but at the same time they were going by with nothing to show for it. I would wake up each morning with a cup of coffee and the newspaper. I’d check my email and then what? ” What do I do today?” Well there’s nothing to do when you don’t have a car. Unless you want to spend the money on a cab.
I had to ask myself what do I love to do and that”s photography and travel. I use to do this when I was younger. I would travel alone to New Mexico, Colorado, and Arizona a lot. So much beauty out there! I would always stay weeks at a time. Then something happen – I became ill. Everything came to a halt. So I have done nothing except try to take care of myself. I have Bipolar, and I do not wish it on anyone. I haven’t had a relationship in 8 years, because I’ve been trying to have a relationship with myself.
One day, I was searching on the internet under hobbies, and once again came across photography. I found this group for photographers who meet and go on trips. I joined and it has motivated me so much that I splurged on a new Nikon D5100. I love it! I was using a point and shoot, but it wasn’t giving me the shots or gratification I wanted.
Now, every day I go out early in the morning with my dog and take pictures of birds, scenery, and anything that moves. I even submitted a photograph to a juried art show. Too much competition, but I did it.
It fees so good to have something again that challenges me yet gives me the satisfaction I’ve been looking for.
I’m starting a blog with my photographs to tell how I took the pictures.
I moved into my condo a year ago and since then have been hearing noises that are interesting. Sometime, I’ll hear a voice and just consider it my Bipolar. I told my doctor and of course was concerned about me. There were times when I thought I saw a figure out of the corner of my eye. I’ve been told that I have good Intuition, which I know I have for many years. I just don’t know if this is part of it. Then, my dog started acting very strange.
Cody, my black Pomeranian will sit very still and stare up at the ceiling in the exact same corner every time. At first, I just chalked it off as having a strange dog. However, he does it every day. Sometimes he will growl at the ceiling so this startles me. I’ve even started looking up at the ceiling. I even grabbed my camera and took pictures, but nothing. Maybe I didn’t do it at the right time. I don’t know what to do.
Recently, I read an article while research this problem and found there could be some medical reason he is acting like this. Or, maybe there are mice or birds, but I don’t hear then. Cody has acted strange ever since I’ve had him. sometime he’ll sit and just stare at the wall like he is in deep thought. My dog does think a lot, and he’s very smart. Cody knows how to get my attention by just sitting and staring about me. My dog can actually go in a trance.
Now, do I have a extremely smart dog psyche or a smart crazy dog.
My family had left to go out to eat and I was alone at last. Well, my dog Cody. I was doing some paperwork when Cody starting barking crazy like and going in circles. I kept telling him to be quite. Then I heard mom and dad in the kitchen so I got up to see what they brought home for me. I went into the kitchen and there was no one there. I was so shocked. I felt like one those ghost hunters when they hear a noise and say “what was that?” They check it out and no one was there. I stood there for a few minutes trying to figure it out, but there wasn’t much to say. My dog wanted out to pee.
I suddenly got a bad feeling. I heard of people who have psyche abilities and see flashes of something going to happen or has already happened. I started worry about my parents. They’re old and shouldn’t really be driving. Can’t tell them that.
Then, they really came home. Dad came to my room and said, “Vickie we had a little accident.” My heart jumped and so did to find out what happen. It seemed mom had fallen on her face after missing a step The miracle of it all is it wasn’t as bad as it should have been. I was so grateful.
WasI hearing their voices a warning sign for me? Or, am I going crazy? This has been happening to me quite a bit. I even see shadows move. I’m very sensitive to noise and senses – do I have a gift and just now opened up to it? Or, am I loony tunes.
I’ve been following my instinct more than my heart and it has helped me out a lot. My intuition has saved my life many times.
I realized the other day that strange things have happen to me since I was a young girl. I’ve always been open to the possibilities of guardian angels, ghosts, psyches, and anything that hasn’t been proven it doesn’t exist.
Yesterday, I saw or felt something sitting next to me and at first glance t was my son. He lives in North Carolina. I sometimes see black shadows, and I’ll hear voices. I never feel like I’m alone. They’re times that items go missing. I thought I was crazy! Well I am, but this was something I had just had my had on. I’ll look and look and then decide to just sit down and think about it and there it is. It’s happen on more than one occasion.
I’m very sensitive to noise and sounds, chatter, and feelings. I can tell on the first introduction or meeting whether I want to know that person or not. I can feel when a person doesn’t feel good. I’ve been told I have HSP – High Sensitively Personality-Psychic Intuition.
I’ve read that people with Bipolar like me are intuitive, because of their sensitive nature. I’ve had these sense and feelings for a long time even when I was in the first grade I was top in the class in track. When time to run I could tune out and focus on the starting line – there was no one but me heading for that starting line so run like the wind it’s you only you. BLAM! I’d take off like a blaze of glory. I flew through the finish line YEA! Know one could catch up and I knew I was going to win. I got that feeling every time when I won.
When I started having these strange things happening to me I started studying intuition and believing, and that’s how I found my higher power.