When you’re trying to make a decision your first thought could be telling you to do one thing while your second thought would interrupt that thought and you decide to go with that decision. Wrong choice.
For instance, you have a drink in your hand and you put it down and a thought pops in your mind “Be Careful.” You don’t listen to that voice or thought and you do it anyway and then a few minutes later you reach for the glass and it falls and breaks. I’ve done this many times. The first thought is your real intuition or your higher power, or your angel, suggesting not to put the glass down on the table in that exact spot. Or, you’ve met someone and your first thought I don’t feel this is the right person and you continue seeing him any, because your lonely. It turns out that your first though was right and he turned out to be wrong for you.
I’ve come to believe that this is your guardian Angel, intuition or higher power making these suggestions. We just need to learn to listen to them. If we listen our lives could be a little bit better and we’ll learn what our God wants us to do. If I had listen to it a long time ago my dreams and aspirations could of happened a long time ago, Instead, I made bad choices in my life. I just didn’t listen, because I didn’t believe.
My job now is to listen very carefully to that little voice inside of me and to make the right choices. I started listening last August, after being laid off again. This cycle has been repetitive for the last 20 or more years. Get a job, get laid off. I kept telling myself, and I even wrote about it in my journals that I needed to focus on what I want. Even in Rehab I wrote my goals down, and 1) Own Photography business 2) Make jewelry 3) Have a photograph of mine published, and 4) Open my Own Business. These are things that I enjoy and I feel that I am really good at. They’ve been on my mind all my life. But, I was afraid, never had the money, and afraid of failing. I just didn’t try. I think I felt like I wasn’t good enough.
This time, I’m bound and determine to get my business off the ground. I now design and make my own jewelry, photograph them and publish on the Internet. I have opened a store on eBay and it’s doing pretty good. I’ve had creator block. I could not come up with a design for my jewelry. Then one day I heard and whisper and I listened. I made that necklace and it turned out great.
My next dream is moving to Wilmington, NC to be with my son and his family. I have a grand son, my first and only one. I plan to do more marketing on my shops and recently I got a great marketing and sales job with a company. This will help me save money to move and open my own shop. That’s my goal and I’m sticking with it. No turning back.
Thanks for listening. Your remarks are appreciated.