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Intuition – Bipolar – High Sensitivity Personality


I realized the other day that strange things have happen to me since I was a young girl.  I’ve always been open to the possibilities of guardian angels, ghosts, psyches, and anything that hasn’t been proven it doesn’t exist. 

Yesterday, I saw or felt something sitting next to me and at first glance t was my son.  He lives in North Carolina. I sometimes see black shadows, and I’ll hear  voices. I never feel like I’m alone.  They’re times that items go missing.  I thought I was crazy!  Well I am, but this was something I had just had my had on.  I’ll look and look and then decide to just sit down and think about it and there it is.  It’s happen on more than one occasion.

I’m very sensitive to noise and sounds, chatter, and feelings. I can tell on the first introduction or meeting whether I want to know that person or not.  I can feel when a person doesn’t feel good. I’ve been told I have HSP – High Sensitively Personality-Psychic Intuition.

I’ve read that people with Bipolar like me are intuitive, because of their sensitive nature.  I’ve had these sense and feelings for a long time even when I was in the first grade I was top in the class in track.  When time to run I could tune out and focus on the starting line – there was no one but me heading for that starting line so run like the wind it’s you only you.  BLAM!  I’d take off like a blaze of glory.    I flew through the finish line YEA!  Know one could catch up and I knew I was going to win.  I got that feeling every time when I won.

When I started having these strange things happening to me I started studying intuition and believing, and that’s how I found my higher  power.

If you have sensitivity study it and learn.

Intuition: Afraid to Make a Decision out of Fear- Bully on That!


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As you know I strongly believe in intuition.   For the last 6 months I’ve been asking myself if I should leave my parents who I’ve been a caregiver for the last 2 years.  It’s become very stressful, and I miss my son and grandchildren.  I kept seeing myself growing old, and never seeing my family.  I could also see myself never finding love again. 

For the last 10 years I’ve been living with the devil and a bottle of alcohol.  The day I made the decision to quit is the day I grew up and became stronger.  Being stronger is making decisions.  That has always been difficult for me.  I usually ask everyone what  should do.  But instead, I knew the only person to make that decision was me.  I started listening  for a sign and direction.

I would cry and ask God what should I do.  I’ve done so much soul-searching then I remembered my very first thought (intuition) when I was trying to make a decision.   I want to move to North Carolina.  I want to be near my son and his family.  I still have some life in me and I want to live

We’re always fearful to make a decision out of fear and making the wrong choice.  However, if we can trust our instinct and intuition you become stronger and confidant in your beliefs.  I use to not be able to make decisions, and hadys had to ask other people’s opinion.  Even then I was afraid.  What should I do – just forget it?  Just stay where your are and don’t make any changes something could mess up?  Don’t take risks?   Well, I say bully on that. If you don’t take a risk you’ll never know what it could have been.  

Well,  I’m going to move to North Carolina. With that decision everything fell into place.  Out of the blue someone contacted me about a cottage on Carolina Beach two blocks from the ocean.  I listened to my intuition, and realized if I don’t make a move now it may be too late.  Hey, I’m not getting any younger.

When I move to North Carolina December 1st I’m starting a blog on my stay on Carolina Beach and where it leads me.  It should be fun.

What is Intuition?


What is intuition? It’s the ability to get a sense, vision or feeling about someone or something. My intuition comes from self and whispers.  I believe these whispers are that of God sending messages to the angels.  Then, they in turn whisper in their angelic message language. We all have intuition. We are born with it. We use it as children we do not know any better. We go on our instinct or gut. But as we grow older the unknown is fearful to us and we don’t want to believe.  We say, I don’t believe in ghosts, vampires, werewolves, or any thing else that is not who we are.  I use to be that way. But now after so many miracles, I believe.  Unless you can prove any different – they exist in my mind. Am I scared?  Of course, but I’m open to the possibilities.

Intuition can be strengthened.  I spent hard time trying to learn and believe.  I came from being a drunk with Bipolar to a person with Bipolar & Dementia trying to survive and live the dreams she has had for along time. Yes, and with the miracle of God, I can still write. If you have dreams and you want something so badly – you can achieve it.  You just have to work very hard for it.  I taught my son this and he is very successful today.

I’m 58, and I have lost a lot of time in life by being crippled.  Bu now, I am going to live the rest of my life the way I want to and the way I have dreamed.  I will listen to my intuition, because I know it will be the right direction. I still have my ups and downs, and I’m going to, which I will discuss later.  But right now – I just want to be happy and believe.  You try it.

My ANGEL – MICHAEL


I believe in divine intuition.  I believe there is a god, angels and guardian angels.  Why?  I’ve experienced all of them.  My life has been saved too many times to not believe.  With Bipolar I have found more spirituality in my life.  I strongly want to believe so I listen to their voices and know that I am now alone.

Recently, I found out that my angel is Michael.  How great is that.  The following is what was giving to me and would like to share it with you.  I also have a Guardian Angel who I named Sierra.  She’s with me all the time.  I’ll introduce her later.

Michael – Leader of the Archangels

“Who is like God”, “Like unto God”, “Who is like the Divine” The first Angel

Michael - The Archangel

Hold him close to your heart

created by God, Michael is the leader of all the Archangels and is in charge of protection, courage, strength, truth and integrity. Michael protects us physically, emotionally and psychically. He also oversees the light worker’s life purpose. His chief function is to rid the earth and its inhabitants of the toxins associated with fear. Michael carries a flaming sword that he uses to cut through etheric cords and protects us from Satan and negative entities. When he’s around you may see sparkles or flashes of bright blue or purple light. Michael is helping if you find yourself under psychic attack or if you feel you lack commitment, motivation and dedication to your beliefs, courage, direction, energy, vitality, self-esteem, worthiness. Michael helps us to realize our life’s purpose and he’s invaluable to light workers helping with protection, space clearing and spirit releasement. Michael conquered the fallen Angel Satan, was in the Garden of Eden to teach Adam how to farm and care for his family, spoke to Moses on Mount Sinai and in 1950 he was canonized as Saint Michael, “the patron of Police Officers,” because he helps with heroic deeds and bravery. Michael also has an incredible knack for fixing electrical and mechanical devices, including computers and automobiles. Michael helps us to follow our truth without compromising our integrity and helps us to find our true natures and to be faithful to who we really are. Michael’s message is don’t be afraid to stand for what you believe in and to fight for what you desire in life!!

Angels Watching Over Me


When I’m feeling like things are going well I can feel the angels all around me. God has sent them to me ensure everything is okay.   I actually found myself talking to them today while I was in the antique mall looking for, angels. I decided I was going to start collecting them.   I don’t feel along when I believe.

Never in my lifetime would I of thought that I would be in the place I am with the thrill of knowing that the things that occurred in my past were Gods plans all along.  Now, I know why.  I had angels with me all the time and didn’t know it.  I think back at the blackest days, and I was really down  on God.  I was the most miserable and so angry all the time.  Why was God letting these things happen to me.  What have I done to deserve this.  I was never happy and I wasn’t happy with myself.  I wouldn’t listen to anyone and I ignored their advise.  The alcohol would blind me from the possibilities of happiness and the future.

Then, something happen. I suddenly felt content.  I had finally got tired of the way my life was going and I didn’t want my son to think I was a drunk and bum.  I wanted to make something of myself.  He actually begged me to stop the drinking and smoking.  When he found out I had Hep C he started to really be concerned with me.   He didn’t want me to die or be alone the rest of my life.  I listened.

That was around Christmas 2008.  On the flight home I prayed about it and said I want something new in my life.  What’s wrong with me!  I have a beautiful son, new grandson, and daughter in law.  I have a family!  The problem has been they live across the US.    Then I said to myself – there is only one thing to do.  I was always told there’s a solution to everything you just have to try.  I made a goal that I’m going to start what I have been dreaming for along time – have my own business, save money, get in physical and mental shape, and be sober. Then, I’m going to move to North Carolina to be with my family.  I want have a little shop on the boardwalk in Wilmington, NC.  I’m going to sell anything and everything I love.

I have stayed here because of my parents.  I didn’t want to leave them.  Then my father had an accident and I moved in to be a caregiver.  I was like what am I doing!  But I love them.  But I felt like my whole life just stopped.   I love and miss my son too much and wanted to watch my grandson grown up. I decided it was time that I do something for me.  I’m 57 with nothing to show for it.  Now I can.

I started praying and writing.  Then things started coming together.  My life has gotten more serene and calm.  Even with my bipolar I’m able to control it – but there are still some hard times.   When the mania or anxiety kicks in I breathe and pray, and then I write.  These prayers seem to work.  Oh,  bless is the power of prayer.

There is so much more to talk about.  Including my experiences with what I call my guardian angels in my past and future.  The darkness I felt and the demons that controlled me.

I would love to hear about other peoples experiences and stories.  I would love to publish them here on my blog.   Thanks for listening.

You Can Make Your Dreams Come True


When you’re trying to make a decision your first thought could be telling you to do one thing while your second thought would interrupt that thought and you decide to go with that decision.  Wrong choice.

For instance, you have a drink in your hand and you put it down and a thought pops in your mind “Be Careful.”  You don’t listen to that voice or thought and you do it anyway and then a few minutes later you reach for the glass and it falls and breaks.  I’ve done this many times.  The first thought is your real intuition or your higher power, or your angel,  suggesting  not to put the glass down on the table in that exact spot.  Or, you’ve met someone and your first thought I don’t feel this is the right person and you continue seeing him any, because your lonely. It turns out that your first though was right and he turned out to be wrong for you.

I’ve come to believe that this is your guardian Angel, intuition or higher power making these suggestions.   We just need to learn to listen to them.  If we listen our lives could be a little bit better and we’ll learn what our God wants us to do.  If I had listen to it a long time ago my dreams and aspirations could of happened a long time ago,  Instead, I made bad choices in my life.  I just didn’t listen, because I didn’t believe.

My job now is to listen very carefully to that little voice inside of me and to make the right choices.  I started listening last August, after being laid off again.  This cycle has been repetitive for the last 20 or more years.  Get a job, get laid off.    I kept telling myself, and I even wrote about it in my journals that I needed to focus on what I want.  Even in Rehab I wrote my goals down, and 1) Own Photography business 2) Make jewelry 3) Have a photograph of mine published, and 4) Open my Own Business.   These are things that I enjoy and I feel that I am really good at.  They’ve been on my mind all my life.  But, I was afraid, never had the money,  and afraid of failing.   I just didn’t try.  I think I felt like I wasn’t good enough.

This time, I’m bound and determine to get  my business off the ground.  I now design and make my own jewelry, photograph them and publish on the Internet. I have opened a store on eBay and it’s doing pretty good.  I’ve had creator block.  I could not come up with a design for my jewelry.  Then one day I heard and whisper and I listened.  I made that necklace and it turned out great.

My next dream is moving to Wilmington, NC to be with my son and his family.  I have a grand son, my first and only one.  I plan to do more marketing on my shops and recently I got a great marketing and sales job with a company.  This will  help me save money to move and open my own shop.   That’s my goal and I’m sticking with it.  No turning back.

Thanks for listening. Your remarks are appreciated.